So I work at a new job where I have to ID people who buy beer/alcohol. There was this young woman (or whom looked in her 20s.) and I asked her for her ID standard procedure. Her face twisted, and she looked livid. She looked at me and said, "I didn't know Racism played a part in this store, "Ayane"."
My brain shutdown immediately, and I was so confused. I asked her,"What?" Then, after I said it, I realized I was white, and she was black.
Then she said, "Mhm, I can tell." I explained I was only doing my job and I'm sorry she felt that way. She handed me her ID, she was 1981. 32/33.
I apologized again, but when she left - she called me a Racist Cunt. I haven't been able to handle it since. After that I had a hard time IDing people who were black. I let another couple who was black go by without saying a word and now I can't stop thinking about it. What if those were minors? What if it comes back to haunt me? I'm going to get fired.
Since then I haven't been able to sleep. I never knew how one thing could make me feel so wrong about myself. I had never played race into anything before, nor do I want to. I just feel like I am a bad person and I don't want to be.
